So, let us talk about it. You know, that little thing that hides in the darkest corner of your brain that you feel like you are to be excommunicated for discussing it. You do know what I am talking about. It is the part of you that sits in the furthest parts of your heart. It is the part that questions your moves, your motives, your desires, and your dreams. It is probably the question that asks the most of you and gives the least back.
Let us talk about a time where things are unclear. Where deep in the darkest corner of your mind a shadow of doubt starts to appear and you start to question if what you are doing is what you should be doing. As we talk about it, we should keep in mind one or two things. The first is this: you are allowed to doubt. The second is this: you have more invested in what you doubt than you realize.
The world seems a scarier place when things are not working out perfectly to my plans. Right now I am moving to Michigan for a year, and I have yet to find a job to sustain me and my wife. It is truly the great unknown in my life. The only unknown. I know a few things. The first is that I am completely in love with God. He has never failed me and I do not think a God that “knows the plans he has for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, to give me hope and a future” intends to start. But it is possible that I need to submit my plans to His plans. After all, plans, not matter how grand or small, take time to develop. The second thing I do not doubt is my passion for pursuing my wife. I will pursue her as the day is long. I do not doubt my love for her, nor do I doubt her love for me. The third thing I do not doubt is my desire to pursue what I believe God has for me as a vocational.
Here is when things get tough and I doubt: when the journey seems more than I can go on my own. I doubt when the circumstances in my life make me feel small.
The beautiful part is; the smaller that I am in my circumstances, the bigger God gets to be in my life. So when I get to those moments in my life, I ask myself the simple question:
Why doubt?
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food for thought: I know you have been there. It is an okay thing to doubt. But the moment your doubt becomes bigger than your God, you need to re-evaluate who is in control of your life. If you are in control, good luck. If God is in control, luck has nothing to do with it.
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