I have always had this black hole in my heart that could never be filled. I say it was a black hole because it was an appetite that was always hungry. It never tired of consuming. Recently I found out that the hole is a little bit smaller than I once thought. The main reason is because of one simple action; love.
I am not talking about the kind of love that is here and there. I am not talking about the love that is a high-school version of love. I am talking about love love. The kind of love that could be easily compared to an addiction. I am talking about the love that binds us all. There are 3 loves in my life. For me, my first love is, and always will be, God. He sent me my Savior, he is my Father, and he is my friend. He leads me beside the still waters, and he restores my soul. I am a consumer in this. I find it is an unsatisfiable desire of mine to become as close to God as I can. I cannot get enough. There are days I feel I am doing a great job at this, then there are other days I get down on myself for not being as close as I would like. I am sure we can all relate to this to some degree. There is the love I have for my girl. She truly is amazing. I am sure there are a lot of guys out there that will disagree, but she is probably the best woman in the world. I consume there too. I love to be loved by her. I love her soft warm hands (that always seem to be “cold” to her) running through my hair or touching my skin. I love to be smiled at and adored by her. I could honestly never get too much of her love. It is unsatisfiable as well. She is all I want on a tough day, and on the other hand when the day is great, she is the only one I desire to share my day with. She is the only thing I need on a cold day. Amazing, is it not? How one person can hold your entire world in the balance and you go so long without even knowing they exist. I obviously try my best to give back the love she gives to me, but I could be loved by her without it getting old forever. The last love in my life is this desire for an adventure. There is a book out there that I have written and alluded to many times that explains these things. I find myself coming back to the heart that desires the adventure of a life time. I find myself preparing for the adventure I am about to have with poise and courage and strength, but I also find myself hesitant, like this taste of adventure will continue to leave me addicted. Like I will never get enough. I feel this way with all three loves in my life.
Three loves in my life, that are easily comparable to three addictions. From the way it looks though, I think they are the best addictions to have. I say the word addiction because these loves are not “kind of needs”, they are “HAVE TO HAVES”. I hope it makes sense.
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Food for thought: What are your love/addictions. Are they healthy?
I can assure you, no one, not one person in this world is as rich as I. That is of course, in my humble opinion. And you can quote me on that.
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